Wow. Another year has flown by, and I now find myself preparing for Year 9! It only feels like yesterday that I was just another teeny, unimportant girl going into Year 7.
I already have so many expectations for 2021. 2020 was like a storm that came in our way, knocking down upon our doors. I hope 2021 is going to be the serenity after a storm, where we will be able to pick ourselves back up.
I spent New Year’s Day celebrating my brother’s 10th birthday with our closet family friends. It was definitely not a normal New Years’ or Christmas, as we usually celebrate big occasions such as these with many family friends. But this year, we obviously couldn’t because of covid. However, we still had a fun, chill day, and we tried to celebrate this occasion as best as we could. We stayed up till 12:30, and it was Lucas’ first time not falling asleep before 12 on his birthday.
I also wrote some New Year’s Resolutions, and although they weren’t very specific, I really want to work hard this year to accomplish them. I think having some goals to aim towards will be very worthwhile for me, as I want to live 2021 to it’s fullest.
Every year, I find myself questioning where the time went. I know that time is precious, and we all seem to waste it doing unimportant things, thinking that we all have the time in the world. But no. This year, I want to start living my life to it’s fullest potential, and not worry about the future, or live my life questioning and living in the past. It’s a hard challenge for me, as I constantly worry about other’s opinions and all the what if’s of life. I want to build my identity, and live my life as the real me.
Honestly, sometimes I look back and only remember the bad memories of the past. I don’t want to do that, but I seem to find myself regretting the decisions and my experiences of the past. I want it to be okay if I’m not okay. I want it to be okay to cry sometimes. I want to start living my life for myself, and not others.
Before I know it, 2022 will be right around the corner and I’ll wonder where the time went. My expectations and hopes for this year are high and big, but if I work hard and live my life according to who I am and what I want it to be, I know that future me won’t question the past.
Life is short. Break the rules. Forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.