For the first time
In a long time
I feel feelings start to stir
The fluttery feelings of love and crushing
The returns of hope
The returns of smiles
The returns of happiness
The returns of feelings
You compliment me
But I can’t tell if you still feel the same or different
Am I still a good friend to you?
Or am I thinking of things that aren’t even there?
The journey is now over
But somewhere inside of me
I realise
The journey is just beginning
The words don’t flow like they used to
The feelings don’t pour out onto paper
I’m worried that things are changing
I’m worried that things are going back to the past
The future is never clear
The past leaves me broken
The present is confusing as hell
But the feelings return
And I repeat the cycle all over again