You tell me good things
And I smile and agree
But inside, I’m still gloomy
A sense of guilt arises
I don’t want to seem fake
Cause the happiness wants to be real
But the truth is
I’m twisted with lost hope
Your words are like roses
Beautiful, but the thorns prick me
And I bleed all over
But I hide my pain and my sadness
Cause I don’t want to show you the pain I’m going through
I just want to be a normal girl
Leaving my problems to the side
Listening to your life in the process
But am I that strong enough to keep hiding the truth from you?
I doubt it, just like I doubt myself
I can’t fight the lies anymore
I can’t fight my pain by myself
But I don’t want to drag you down
Cause I don’t want you to feel my pain
I may not be truthful all the time
But I’m just trying to protect you
I have no excuses
And I try to be honest with you
But life is hard enough already
So don’t be angry with me
And I’ll bleed and cry by myself
Just so you don’t have see
I’ll fight my own pain and sadness
So you won’t have to pull me out again