Last night, I listened to a playlist I made exactly a year ago today, and I legit almost started crying because of all the emotions and thoughts it brought back. I made Love Songs Because I’m Lonely after my crush stopped talking to me, and I started to deal with all the mess he had left behind.
I realised how much had happened since then, and my initial purpose for the playlist, and it made me really emotional thinking about everything I had to go through. I guess it’s true when they say “one song can bring back a thousand memories.” Every song I listen to encapsulates a memory/moment of my life, and whether it be good or bad, I keep getting reminded of the past.
Sometimes, looking back and reflecting on the past is good and healthy, so that I can learn from my past mistakes. However, it starts to become an issue when I start to beat myself down because of something that happened months ago. I guess this has something I’ve struggled for a long time, especially because I have the mindset that everything is never going to go well, and let only my mistakes define who I am as a person.
Something I really hope to improve on for the next few months is just living in the moment, and letting music remind me of my past, but also give me hope for my future. For me especially, music is the answer to all my problems, and it just gets me when no one else can. Music is just the thing that reminds me that it’s okay to be human. It’s okay to cry, and it’s okay to move on and live life as your best self.
It’s okay.