I care about you too much
It scares me how much I think
About you
About us
About our future together
I break myself into pieces
I endure the pain so you won’t have to
I feel my world crashing around me
But you still stay intact
The pain bleeds out
And I quickly hide it behind my fake smiles
If you can’t see it
How do you know ?
That I’m breaking apart
Because of you, because of this
I tear myself apart
I deal with the darkness by myself
Because I don’t want you to see
I don’t want you to see how much I’m hurting
I don’t want you to fix me
Because I’m not fixable
Don’t you get how much it hurts ?
To have someone there
For someone to see the pain and darkness beneath thee
To feel weak when I want to feel strong