I’m not the girl I used to be
I’m not the person you thought I was
I’m stuck in the past
Worried about the future
My destiny is unclear to me
Who am I anymore?
Who was I once?
Can’t you tell that this is killing me?
But I can’t say a damn thing now
Because I’m stuck living a life I can’t explain
I don’t wanna lose you too
Just tell me the truth, am I that great?
Cause I’m not the perfect figure everyone thinks I am
I’m scared to fail
I’m scared of life
I’m scared of losing the things that matter to me
My destiny happens to be
Whatever I want it to be
But I don’t know who I wanna be
I don’t know who I once was
I can’t find my balance between you and him
I can’t find my balance between the heaven and hell
I can’t find my inner peace
I can’t find anything
I’m weak and impure
I’m dying slowly
I’m about to crash and burn again
But I don’t want to say anything
Cause you’ve got other things to deal with
I don’t want to be a problem
My destiny can be indecisive
And you can figure out your own life
I’m sorry but this is killing me
I don’t want to relapse and fade within
I don’t want to tell you the truth
Because it’ll kill me all over again