I’ll have those types of days once in a while. The days where I say I’m fine, but I’m really not.
And the only reason I don’t tell you is because I don’t want you to see me like this. Like… a problem.
I don’t want you to see me at my weakest; my most vulnerable state.
I don’t want you to share my pain. Because I know how tough it is, and I don’t want you to go through that too.
Because I care too much about you.
And that’s why I don’t want to tell you about my problems, or when I’m not okay. That’s why I lie to you over and over again.
So you don’t have to get hurt because of me.
So you don’t have to walk through my pain as well as your own.
So there’s a greater chance that you’ll stay, and won’t leave me like the others who have already left.
