not one “are u ok”
not one care
not one “i love you”
not even one fucking stare
you ask me why
I don’t spill my secrets
why i don’t share my scars
well this is why
you leave me on delivered
hours on end
leaving me to sit and stare
and bleed for a while
watch the mirror as she cries
and in a split second
you text out of the blue
oh.
now you want to see me?
I wipe away
the blood, the sweat, the tears
hide the lies underneath the bed
my mother calls
I answer
you call
I answer
but even then
you sit and stare
watch another video
guess you just want to watch tv
i’ll stay in the pool and drown
so i don’t have to watch you leave
maybe i should get some sleep
all of my friends are missing again
that’s what happens when you fall in love
I’ll try not to starve myself
just because you’re mad at me
oh wait
I already did
I don’t get along with anyone
maybe i’m the problem
maybe i’m the problem…
– maybe i’m the problem