Another year, another class. Another group of people I’ll soon call “friends”, another long list of teachers who will get my name wrong in roll call.
Today was my first day of Year 9, and honestly, I still feel like a small year 7. It’s been 2 years since I started high school, and with each year, brings new friends, new opportunities, new drama. Hmm, I wonder what’s in stock for this year?
Honestly, for my first day of Year 9, it wasn’t that great.
My class seems really nice so far – with 7 boys and 23 girls, it’s the complete opposite of 8F. I have some friends, including Grace S, Rionah, Siyona, Yunbin and Rhea, who I’m really grateful for. I know most of the kids in my class too, but I’m not that close to anybody else.
I’ve got one or two friends in each of my elective classes, except for philosophy, where I was left by myself until Holly invited me to sit with them.
Even though I’m really grateful for my class this year, part of my heart still misses 8F. After getting attached to a rowdy, but an amazing group of kids who turn a class into a cult, it’s hard not to miss what used to be.
But I promised myself this year – I would be open to change, and wouldn’t be scared of what it would bring. Change isn’t always a bad thing. It’s what allows us to grow and evolve into a (hopefully) better versions of ourselves.
It’s too early to make any judged decisions about my class right now, but it’s clear that this year will be very different from last year. I hope that I’ll be able to get to know some new people and maintain my current relationships. I have so many high expectations for this year, and I’m ready for this journey of change and self-love.
I realised today that the things that used to make me happy, don’t anymore. It was a hard thing to digest, and I may have been way too overwhelmed today, and *hypothetically* broke down, crying in my zoom music class…
Anyway, for the first day of Year 9? It wasn’t that great. But there’s still 11 months of school left, and I’m ready to try to live fully in all the moments till the end.