I don’t think I can do this anymore
You and me
The path isn’t making it through
But I still need you
You’ve done so much for me
And know I’m paying my dues
But you’ll only use me for you
And I’ll eventually be left aside, forgotten
When you talk to me
I feel this ache in my chest
Because you’re always talking about him
And I sit here sobbing, under the emojis I send
You are strong
And you’ve got people
But I’ve got barely anyone anymore
Because everyone walks away
Everyone leaves me
Leaving me sobbing all alone
I’m grateful for your dues
But now I sit here questioning my entire existence
Because you make me feel like I’m worthless
Like I’m not needed
Like I’m not loved
Like you don’t actually need me
Not like I need you
You talk about after so easily
But I guess, it’s a sensitive topic for me
Because your death and mine aren’t the same
Because maybe you don’t realise how triggering it can be
To hear a voice inside your head
Twist up each and every word you’ve said
To make you the problem and not the fixer
I’m stuck here
While once again, you leave
And move forward
While I sit here waiting for you once again
For the pain to pass
For the hurt to numb
For the tears to finally stop
For the dues to finally be over