I wanted to write a quick reflection of this week, because there’s been a lot going on in my life, and I really need to get some things off my chest.
This was my first week back at school, and unfortunately due to the increasing number of covid cases, we had to go back to online school. While I know this is only a safety precaution for the benefit of our health, I’m still quite disappointed as I was really looking forward to ice skating and catching the train with my friend in the mornings. However, I still tried to make the most of online school and its added benefits of doing school from home, such as face timing my friends and listening to music while working. I also did 3 workouts this week while face timing my friends, who thankfully did it with me! Although I did feel quite sore, my body is adjusting to the soreness, and I feel more accomplished working on my body.
I’ve also started reading everyday, an old routine that I slowly fell out of because of the amount of school work that I had. I’ve been borrowing ebooks from our school library, and I spent my afternoons with a good book and multiple playlists off Youtube. I honestly really enjoyed doing this, even though I’ve been feeling quite emotionally and physically drained after reading for 3 hours!
Something that I’ve really struggled with this week, is my perspective of my body and my emotions. My view of myself has been really strained, especially because I’ve been stuck at home all day every day. My parents aren’t always the easiest people to be around all the time, and I really miss seeing my friends at school every day. I guess I don’t feel like my best self right now, and admitting this makes me feel even worse. I know there are people I can reach out to, but it feels like I’m burdening people with my problems, especially because I know that I’m not the only one who’s going through things.
Moving forward, I know that things are going to be hard, but I’m ready to keep moving and take the next step. One of the things I know I’m going to include in the next few weeks, is the system I’ve started using for school. It’s allowed me to stay on top of my tasks, and motivated me to take time for myself and ask for help if I need it. I’m definitely going to continue reading everyday, as it’s helped me feel more relaxed after a long day, and listening to playlists on Youtube have kept me motivated, on task, and relaxed. The final thing I want to do is actually something I want to write about in another blog post, but I know that different parts of it is going to take longer than the physical components!
Until then, I’m going to keep working hard and focusing on myself!