This week was my first week back after the Term 1 school holidays. From the get go, I found myself faced with many challenges from stress and anxiety, to losing a family member.
To be entirely honest, I didn’t cope very well with the hardships I was faced with. Everyday after school, I just came back home and cried. It wasn’t pretty.
One of my goals this year was to become more confident in myself, and become truly happy. And well, this week didn’t make me feel confident at all. There is always an expectancy, this pressure that’s laid upon my shoulders from my peers, family, teachers, and most of all me, to do well in all the areas of my life. It gets quite hard for me sometimes to deal with everything that’s going on, and I find myself breaking down every so often due to the amount of pressure I deal with.
One hardship I faced this week was losing one of my close family members. She was diagnosed with covid, and had to go to hospital and have a ventilator to help her breathe. She was very close with my Nana and Aba (my grandparents), lived with them, and helped them take care of the house. The news of her passing was a sudden shock to me, and I cried on the bus all the way to band at school.
One highlight of my week, was finally being honest with my friend and telling her what was going on. I let out all my bottled emotions, things that had been on my mind for months, and I told her the honest truth. After this, I could feel our relationship becoming a lot less strained, and more open and connected. This feeling made me feel a lot better and lighter, and it was great to be on good terms with my friend again.
Overall, even though this week was very challenging for me, it was great to see my friends again. I’m excited to start afresh next week, and also have some time to myself this weekend so I can catch up on things that I’ve been missing out.