I’m the girl you see
The girl who sits by the bin
The girl who smiles and laughs
The girl who says language when people swear
I’m the girl who stays quiet
The girl that completes work
The girl who does what is asked of her
The girl who wants to be your friend
You see me
But you don’t see me
You see the mask that covers me
But you don’t see the pain
The tears
The hurt
That lie behind the mask
I’m the girl who cries herself to sleep
Who keeps secrets from her parents
Her family
Her friends
I’m the girl who isn’t seen
The one that hides in the corner
The anti-social one
The one who always has headphones in
The one who always gets headaches
Maybe I don’t want to be seen
Maybe I feel weak and afraid
Maybe I want to feel something inside of me
But all I feel is sad
Afraid
Empty
Broken
All the emotions swirl around inside
But I don’t let them pour out
I bottle them up
Until all I can do
Is let them out
I wear that mask
So you don’t have to
I be something else
So you don’t see the real me
The real me
The one who relies on music to keep her alive
The one who gets cold easily
The one who wants to feel loved and special
The one who doesn’t want to feel broken
The one who doesn’t want to be afraid
The one who hurts on the inside
But wears the mask of “everything’s okay” on the outside
I am that girl
And that girl is me