This seems to be working for me
I start off bad
Make something good
Feel better
But then I relapse
The emotions overwhelming once again
Who am I?
What have I achieved?
What’s wrong with me?
You’re there for me when I need you the most
But you don’t get it
Cause the feeling doesn’t go away
It’s just here to stay
It hides in the shadows
Makes me feel hopeful
Until it strikes once again
Leaving me bleeding all over again
Can’t you tell something’s wrong?
Or is it just me?
I live two lives
One you see and one you can’t
The music numbs my pain
Keeping me paralysed from life
The poems help me express it
When I can’t find the verbal words to say it
The people help me feel hope
Igniting me with what seems to be a sense of happiness
the pain undoes the stitches
Keeping the good tucked away in the dark
Writing is a therapy for me
It isn’t something I do for others
Its a journey of self-reflection
A journey of hope
ButTo go somewhere better than my own
Your smile lights my world
Your hope builds my own
Your love is something I envy
You give me these feelings
But I still feel empty
Drained of life
I climb the stairs to heaven
But still feel like I’m at the bottom of hell
You can’t see the terror in my eyes
And I never want you to
Cause it’s a scary feeling
And I want to protect you
I love you
And I need you
Because without you
I’ll die in my own words