I’m starting to think that you don’t care anymore
About me or who we once used to be
You seem to only care about him
But each time, I brush it off
Because I know I’m not worth it
Because I know that you think he is
I know that we aren’t that close anymore
But you still have the power to hurt me
You still have the power to hurt me
You still have the power to love me
You still make me feel strong, but weak
You still make me confused as hell
I can’t tell you any of this
Nor do I want to
Cause I don’t want to come off as jealous
Because my feelings are all over the place right now
I hate that the people who care about you the most
The people that love you the most
Can also be the people who hurt you the most
Who can stab you in the back at any time
Wait, just give me a minute
To figure out what’s going on right now
To love, or not to love
To cry, or not to cry
I know that I don’t like him
But I know that I love you
So why do I feel like my heart’s about to break
Every time you talk about him?
I’m doing the best I can
While trying to hide my true feelings
I’m pretending as best as I can
So I don’t hurt you all over again
But in the process of pretending
I’m pretending to myself
Telling myself that I’m okay
And that I deserve the pain, the hurt that you’re flinging at me
I don’t know anymore